The Night Before

Tomorrow is the big day. The diaper bag is packed, as is the briefcase. Lots of list have been made, the laundry is folded and put away and the house is fairly clean (why these last two had to be done is anyone's guess, but I know it makes me feel better).

Back to work for me tomorrow, and I have all of the emotions that you would guess I would have right about now. It is not so much like the night before the first day of school, but rather like the night before the first day back to school after spring break.

I am very, very thankful that my office has been so accommodating about my schedule. I will be working part-time and doing a good chunk of that from home. I'll only be in the office 12 hours a week, but those 12 hours... oh, they feel like an eternity to be away from my baby. And I am so thankful for the wonderful childcare situation that we have. I do indeed feel very well provided-for through this entire situation. Still, I find myself with so many misgivings- doubt, fear, guilt, sadness, discontentedness, etc. I am going to try my hardest to focus on the twinges of excitement and thankfulness, though, and hopefully they will soon replace all that other stuff. Think of us tomorrow!